Hello? Anyone there? :o)
I see from comments left that some of you have been checking to see if I am back. Well, I am, I think! I am sorry, I know it has been a long few months.
I started a medication to stop smoking a few months ago. From the beginning, I had headaches, nausea, foggy headed and depression. The dr said it was all normal, gave me some meds for the nausea and said, "hang in there, it's only 3 months!" Well, the nausea got bearable anyway and the burning fist in my gut that went with it, settled down. The fog remained and the depression kept getting worse. I just couldn't function; didn't WANT to do anything! I spent hours on Facebook every day just playing games because I didn't have to think. Everything else went by the wayside and I do mean everything! My quality control work, my designing, housework, everything. I simply couldn't move or think anymore.
Now I get depressed in the winter but it always goes away once Spring hits and the flowers start popping up. This year, that never happened.
Well, it has been 2 months, my smoking is half of what it was but not completely gone and I went to the dr and said enough is enough. The depression was killing me and I was tired of not being able to do anything or enjoy anything day in and day out. I was tired of feeling like I had morning sickness every day. I was just plain tired of it all. (Perhaps the depression talking? lol)
I am starting to feel better, my head is so much clearer it is really amazing! I actually got some QC work done yesterday, listened to music, danced around the livingroom and just plain felt pretty darn good all day! Hubby was so happy when last night, I was happy for a change. I am still smoking and fear I will never be able to stop. This was pretty much the last in the line of things to try. I am not going to worry about it for now though. I am going to get my body and mind back together and then go from there. I have enough to think about with deciding whether or not to have surgery on my thyroid or stay on those meds. I can't have iodine treatments because I am severely allergic to iodine. The meds are working at the moment but I go up and down over time so the dr thinks surgery is the answer to get and keep it under control. It's a big decision though because of course, who wants surgery of any kind! Plus, I feel the meds can be adjusted when necessary but if they cut out 2/3's of the thyroid, that's it! It's not coming back! If it doesn't work, then it's meds for life anyway! Of course, if it does work, it means no more meds ever again! (For those who don't know, I have Hashimoto's disease.)
At least now, with my mind clearer, maybe I can think better about having the surgery or not.
So, now you know why I have been missing in action. I am so sorry! I had no idea it had gotten so bad actually until hubby commented one night about how depressed I was. I am glad to be among the living again and not a zombie, just moving through my days, going through the motions. I will try to get back on track with the postcards but it may be a little bit yet. My head is just starting to clear and I have a million things I really need to catch up on.
Thanks for hanging in there and checking in! Thank you for the comments you have left, even though I was gone! You have no idea how much that meant to me today, to open up the blog and see them! :o) Thank you!
Ok, I am off to get some work done!
Have a wonderful day everyone!
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Wow! You are back and it was so nice to hear from you again. I'm sorry it has been such a rough two months. I figured it had to be something like that. I don't know you (although I feel like I do) so please don't be offended by this. I just recently found out about Candida Albicans and the aweful symptoms it can cause so I thought I would share this with you. My daughter has fibromyalgia and she is recovering by treating the Candida. Hashimoto disease is another symptom of this terrible problem. If you are interested in more info, please email me. I have nothing I am selling, just trying to help get the word out about this.
I am so very sorry that you've had such a rough two months. I was really worried about you. I kept checking back and wondering if you had been in an accident or something. I'm so glad that you're feeling better, and I hope it continues to get better for you every day. You'll be in my thoughts and prayers.
Well...it doesn't sound like that drug was very good for you! Don't know what it was but I wouldn't want to take it. Think I will just stick to smoking and being happy! Sure glad your feeling better. I too kept checking to see what was happening here and was concerned that something was really wrong. Keep your chin up. Glad you are off those meds!! Mary
Glad to see you again! Hope each day is better and better.
I'm so glad you're back on the blog, Denise! My niece has Hashimoto's, so I know what's it's like. I was also on meds to quit smoking, quit for 3 months and went back to it. I didn't like the side effects either, they can be pretty rough. Hang in there, my friend!
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